I'm not sure if you guys ever felt the same way about certain incidents..which it lingers in ur head for decades?
I have a few... for some I wish I could have done differently then..
Happened when I was in my secondary school (16/17 yrs) ..I was queuing up at the bakery in my hometown..there was a boy I think should be in form 1 (13 yrs old) I assumed he's going back to the hostel judging from the uniform (only school with hostels required students to wear uniform during saturday outing)
He took a mini pizza..at the counter, when the shop keeper punched the price..the boy looked puzzled looking at the price shown at the monitor..and he said "takpe la kak...tak jadi ambik.." then he put pack the pizza and left the bakery...with a very sad face:(
I was deeply disturbed looking at his face..contemplating..to offer him to pay..but I was being me.. TIMID..too shy to even offer..I stood there..looking at the boy..deep down I wanted to cry..."poor boy...!! I wish you will be successful one day..you can buy lots and lots of pizzaa.."
That incident lingers in my mind until now..I wish I have the courage then to offer paying for the mini pizza...perhaps I will not feeling so guilty now...I feel "sebak" everytime I think of that boy..
I sincerely hope he's doing sooo well now...Aminnn!!
Happened 2 years ago..during fasting month
Normally during fasting month..I will just buy food from Bazar Ramadhan..so in the evening I would go with my husband to buy food and we break fast at my in-laws' place.
There's one stall selling soup..all type of soups..but the responds were not so good..I saw 2 kids..1 girl i think 5-6 yrs old helping the mother chasing the flies..and a boy i think aged 2+ yrs..sleeping while standing, putting his head on the small desk at the back of the stall ..I think if the boy slipped he could have fell into the drain which just few feets away:(
That particular sight really bothered me, so I asked my husband to buy .."if it's not tasty..let's just do it for the charity sake.." we bought and it taste quite ok...then we continue buying until a few days later..we saw the stall was closed..I assumed they couldn't sustain....
I was profoundly disturbed..I told my husband..I dont want anymore handbags and shoes...I vowed not to waste on unnecessary shopping spree anymore...I even told my friends about this...I was hoping to see them at the Bazaar ramadhan last year, ..unfortunately..takde:( but of course I cepat lupa..my vows then was just a vow:(
This one didn't happen directly to me..but to my husband..which the impact is quite the same as I experienced this myself..
My twin 1 has a mild asthma..so we know sometimes at night or anytime we have to go to clinic for her nebulizer..I totally can relate to mothers who share the pain seeing their little girl gasping for air..(horrible experience I must say...)
One afternoon, my husband parked his car at the roadside..he was approached by a man in a motorcycle..behind him a woman holding a child..that child was crying and seemed to be having difficulties breathing...that man in his 30's (can speak good english) he looks panicked "Assalamualaikum..I need help..can you give me RM30, I need to send my daughter to clinic she needs nebulizer.." my husband handed him RM50 ..the man asked "another RM20, how do i return to you?" which my husband said he can keep it...
It puzzled us as the man seems to be educated..but I dont know why he didnt have the money..but that's besides the point...
The main point is...nauzubillah...I cant imagine being parents of child with ashtma and seeing him/her gasping for air but you couldnt do anything as nebulizer cost you RM30-40 each time????
Perhaps we see RM30 is nothing ..we can easily spend that much for just one meal...but to those who is less fortunate?? it cost a life!!!!!
These 3 incidents "menginsafkan"...it also a reminder...there are people out there who 's less fortunate..we have to be thankful for what we have...all these are just "pinjaman"....
Until next time...