Unplanned pregnancy part 1

When I got married, both my husband and I planned to have only boys..no girls..(we thought raising girls nowadays are very challenging)..we waited at least a year before started a family, so when I was pregnant with my first one (after my 1st wedding anniversary), we were so hopeful it's going to be a boy.. so when my gynea confirmed it was a girl..we sort of thwarted:(

So the next year..I told my husband..if we have a boy, I'm going to stop having babies..we made a deal..then I got pregnant a year after...(didn't plan so immediate though...)

I suddenly felt very tired..came back after work, I just dozed off on the sofa couldn't do anything..so I told my husband.."if i'm not pregnant, I think I'm having a chronic desease or something that is fatal....so better hope I'm pregnant"

So I bought a pregnancy test..and waiting anxiosly.......hoping it's just a single line..all the symptoms were false....hoping and praying in the toilet,

but then..Allah has better plan.... taddaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...double line showed up!!!....I froze for a moment..hoping it's a mistake...i was still in denial..so I went to a nearby clinic to get a doctor to confirm..the result came back...POSITIVE...huwaaaa!!!!!!

maannnnnnnn....I am pregnant.!!!!!.I started to panick..how on earth to tell my colleagues and friends..I'm pregnant again??? How my boss will react if she finds out..we have a high KPI to achieve..huwaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! I felt so embarassed..all sort of things came to my mind like "have u ever heard of family planning??" "are you a baby bearing machine??" "what were you thinking??" "ooo..so fertile laa you.." and I was like maluuuunyaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! almost hysterical....ohh..noooooooooooooo!!!!!!nehiii..nehiiii...!!!
Then after I get myself calmed..I called my husband.."Guess what????" I said.. and he responded "you are pregnant..yeeyyyyy" how on earth he can read my mind.."alaaaaaaaa....I'm not yet ready...poor allysha..she's going to have a baby brother while she still needs our undivided attention"

(very positive it's going to be a boy :))

Anyhow, I immediately bought the acid folic, waited until the 8th weeks to see the gynea..didnt tell anyone..keep the secret until i almost over my 1st trimester..I remembered my boss commented "hey I dont think having nasi lemak every morning is good you know..see you have gained so much weight.." darn..I was even more ambarassed..and out of no where I blurted out.."i'm pregnant laa..not fat"..

Come to think of it..what is it to be ambarassed..as if having child out of wedlock;))

To my dear babies..

it's not mommy doesnt want you..it's just that ...mommy was having a hormonal imbalance then..;)) no offense ya lallinggg;) and I dont regret a bit having you both..i wouldnt trade you for the world..or the pearls in the sea or the treasures in the kingdom..(ceewah bermadah pulak mommy..:)

until then..